LoBD

I chugged half a bud-light (with I am by no means a fan of, but if pussy is pussy, then alcohol is alcohol), and decided booze wasn't going to make me feel any better tonight. You know you're an alcoholic when you start drinking alone. Ah, well. Pouring it down the drain made me feel like Winnie-the-Pooh pouring his honey out, or some guy from those A-1 commercials, pouring the last bottle, every last drop, down a drain. That's no exaggeration, either!

Always something to replace another, none of it's irreversible but it's all inconsequential because it's all an illusion. Irreplaceable was a well-thought out lie, and communism was a poorly executed truth.

..and don't even try being suicidal! It's selfish.

We collectively chain each other, forbidding each other to chase pipe dreams. Because we'd risk hurting each other, and instead of people doing what they want, everyone restricts themselves to avoid risk. I moved, I changed names, I use a fancy online alias, and a whole lot of other shit. Now guess what?

I can do whatever I want with little remorse. That's great.

TOO BAD I DON'T HAVE ANYBODY TO DRINK WITH NOW.
OR SNORT OXY-CLEAN WITH.

It's okay. I'm so glad Al-Gore invented the internet.
The only people I've ever connected with have come from here.. I've met so many, and I think about the ones I've lost contact with all the time. I kind of feel blind. When you're talking to someone you've never met, it's ridiculously easy for something to go wrong, and you'll never hear from them again.

But that's okay. If it wasn't for how hard it would be to perform everyday tasks, I wouldn't mind being blind too much. I love color, but when you meet people, judging people by physical appearance comes instinctively. Talking to someone you'll almost definitely never meet helps take away most of that.

What if everyone were blind, though? We'd be bumping into each other and there would be accidents everywhere, the internet would be effectively ruined, and we'd fall several hundred years behind. I can imagine people might start judging one another by the sound of their voices or something stupid, but our mental connections would grow stronger. I think.

Kind of like suicide. When I do it, it's selfish, but what if EVERYONE killed themselves at the same time? Death pacts are kind of romantic, I guess, and it's a way of getting out of dieing alone. I can't think of anyone else I'd rather die with than with the rest of humanity. Either that, or we need a common evil to unite against to bring us closer together..so maybe I could get some Cuban cigars.

Meeting interesting people is like an impossible fetish. It's great to get off about, but even if that impossible fetish could happen, it still wouldn't be as good as it was in your head. Like being impaled with dicks to death. Same thing with people. Although I guess drugs are a bit of an opposite, as they're a lot better when they're tangible. Actually, imaginary drugs are pretty lame, now that I think about it.