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Burning bridges
I've scrubbed every corner of this place squeaky clean.
I'm still walking on razor blades.
My poor fish feels the tension - he ate his tail today.

A walk by the train tracks
in the thunderstorm
will wipe my mind cleaner than all that bleach on the floor.

(This feeling of exhilaration that comes over you the moment the sky turns this color and fills up the lungs is excitingly freaky...)
Unhappy has long ceased to have any meaning.
Meaningless no longer implies unhappy.
Nothing is everything?

If only I could convince myself that's true.


Comments on "Burning bridges"


Cure Jul 11, 2009 07:17 am

Nothing has a meaning, meaning is nothing? Unhappy is a lack thereof, unhappy is unsomething. Meaning is implications, never tangible, nothing to define.


Jib Jul 11, 2009 01:09 pm

"For God, nothing is impossible."

-Nothing is impossible
-'nothing is impossible'

There is nothing that is beyond the realm of possibility; everything is possible. It follows that "nothing is impossible" -- that is, nothingness is impossible. Doesn't it take something to even be able to imagine the concept of "nothing"?

It's only hard to accept nothing as everything when we think of "nothing" as a concept--at which point it ceases to be nothing, and becomes something, and at which point we are accepting "something" that is masquerading under the pretense of "nothing"; inquisition, anxiety, concern, worry, discomfort, or just uncertainty and lack of clarity -- or even convincing oneself that nothing is everything -- are all "somethings," and accepting those "somethings" as "everything" is like agreeing to drink nothing but apple cider for the rest of eternity.

And who (with the exception of certain people, I'm sure) would feel completely comfortable with that? If apple cider were all there was, that would be pretty awful, don't you think?

The reason I said that is because of this: The song you listed that you were listening to -- "Empty" by Ray LaMontagne -- reminded me of a quote I heard a while back that goes, "The usefulness of a cup is its emptiness." To accept nothing as everything is to accept everything by way of entering a state of emptiness, or nothingness; in emptying yourself of preconceived notions, rationalization and attempts to understand things that are incomprehensible, you're allowing all the wealth of the world -- "everything" -- to fill you. Blueberry smoothies, root beer floats, eggnog, and all the other great drinks you can imagine would never get as far as your lips if your cup is brimmed with cider.

"For God, nothing is impossible." If that's true, then nothing is everything, everything is nothing, nothing came from everything and everything came from nothing -- and it's equally true that life is completely pointless as well as existent for a specific purpose. Happiness is a lie, and it's the truth; other people are important, and other people mean nothing; but then nothing means everything, so everything makes sense.

Of course, it's a kind of sense that none of us can understand. Trying to grasp the concept of "Nothing is everything" is like (as I've heard before) "swallowing a hot ball of iron and being unable to throw it back up." For whatever it's worth, the thousands of hours I've spent researching all sorts of things to find answers to that very question has led me, right now, to only one conclusion that I see worthy of anything. And it's right in this moment -- maybe it'll be here just for now, maybe it'll come back, maybe it's pointless and maybe it's full of meaning -- but it doesn't matter to me, because I can't tell either way.

Right now, I just feel like this:

"(This feeling of exhilaration that comes over you the moment the sky turns this color and fills up the lungs is excitingly freaky...)"

I'm far from the only one who's seen that hue of the horizon -- that one that makes you feel like you just walked into a dream and lifts you up, with you -- all the while -- having no idea why you feel so good.

And burning bridges is only good for keeping enemies away, yeah? Maybe it's true that when they're all burned, harm can't reach us anymore. Wouldn't that be something! ;)

I think this is an appropriate song for what I'm trying to say.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a50UTofaz4w

Thank you for sharing!

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