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Jib: Hey man; let me know how you've been doing lately when you've got time. Keep on keepin on

Jib: gravitational constant ftw

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Jib: hey man, how's your pancreas doing

Jib: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jib: My brain = burnt applesauce

Jib: and lmao, you're right, I'm such a jerkoff. I'M A LOSER BABY SO WHY DON'T YOU KILL ME

Jib: And wow, the lyrics.

cleverclogs: Ahh! I've done that backspace/page change on accident as well, I know your toils! Thanks so much for commenting! All of it was relevant! (It was also nice to read an excerpt from The Great Gatsby, it's been a while, thanks!)

Jib: LMAO I didn't even think of that! That completely slipped my mind. if you're a jerk, I'm the biggest jerk in the universe. Thanks so much!! XD

Jib: AND...keep me posted on that girl, I'm interested in how that's going for you.

Jib: aw no -__- that's what I said. And I just have to step in for a sec: I think the one thing that's most common is that site administrators are stereotyped a lot....I'll tell you, I went on one site, and I got SO pissed at the moderator, because he basically made me feel like garbage after ripping some thing I did to pieces. I think I was like 13 or 14 at the time, and I was like It really upset me. So I came onto this site with a bias (kind of like the bad-cop experience - hate all cops thing)....but everyone has their own personality; I just have to say he really is a good guy, and he works REALLY hard to keep this site running; and if anything, he keeps it going here so everyone else can get their kicks off it -- but I mean in the best way, so people like us can have a chance to meet. I'm not trying to spam your SBox here or anything, but he really is a good guy, just had to throw that in because he's helped me and so many other people so much around here, and he deserves a lot more than that -- I know how you feel though, just remember stereotypes are always misleading. And just one more thing, as a side note -- he wrote a poem called "Untitled I" that I absolutely loved, and I have a feeling both you guys would like it; I could relate to it very well, in any case. Anyway, yeah, just wanted to clear away some bitterness, 'cause I felt that too when I joined here, and now I feel bad about all those biases. Just like I thought my English teacher in high school was a jerk when I had him for a study hall, then I had him for English junior and senior year, and he's probably one of my favorite people of all time. And now I'll stop the SBox spamlette (I bet that would taste good)

Jib: So you see, all these long posts I'm making now are exactly what you shouldn't do; I'm not saying that it's right or wrong, just to be very, VERY wary of how you're talking, and to make sure of whether or not you're overwhelming her with emotions/thoughts/anything else. As an ending note, yes: it seems like a lot of pain I went through could've been avoided if I just said "let's go hang out" or if I had enough nerve to ask people for hugs. Live and learn...but don't be too anxious about missing any lessons suffering has to offer -- there's plenty to go around. Keeping simplicity and love at heart is what matters most, and if you keep that in mind while you're writing to people, finding the right words is a lot easier. GOOD LUCK! and tell me how it goes I'm also happy that she said you guys needed to talk....I hope it's a good talk. Definitely better than a lot of other possible things she could've said, though, so at least for now I'm saying it's a thumbs-up! GO TEAM GO! ! And yeah. Get enough sleep. Because if you don't, you'll end up like me...I rest my case. Take care man, and I hope to talk to you soon.

Jib: OHHHHHH Hold on!!!!! Let me know how the letter goes; but please, don't do what I did -- I thought that writing a long message was the way to go, but what ended up happening what ****NOT**** GOOD. I'm not trying to scare you or anything, but keep it simple; remember, no matter how complex your feelings are, as well as all the rest of the thoughts in your head, your feelings toward that girl aren't complicated. At the root of things, it's very simple; love is the primary emotion/feeling/source for energy (I'm not trying to get weird here, but it really does seem like that on all levels).........so in short, I really, really hope things with this girl work out for you, but I also have to say that I feel more ready to shoot myself in the foot than to let happen to you the same thing that happened to me. See how I type a lot? That doesn't work with love/feelings of intimacy; I COMPLETELY fucked myself one time, and though that was probably the worst time, it was definitely not the only. Well hey, I'm rambling now too, and this works because our brains are wired similarly. Keep in mind that if someone else isn't thinking in terms of spaghetti waffles, they're not going to be able to understand where you're coming from; and it's nobody's fault, I'm just saying that that complicates a LOT of things.

cleverclogs: Thank you so much for reading!!! Btw, that Moses pic is fuckin' hilarious!!!!

Jib: And you know, there're a couple sites I think you might like that I stumbled upon recently. http://www.shaktitechnology.com/ http://www.neilslade.com/art/Brain/chap1.html Yeah, lots of people disagree with that Slade guy, and there's all this stuff about THAT'S COMPLETE BULLSHIT THAT'S NONSENSE THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE HE'S A FRAUD so on and so forth. But it's interesting as anything, and in tandem with the field of neurotheology and everything else, it's worth a shot. And I don't pay attention to "non-believers"; that is to say, I do my best to keep doubt out of my life -- though that's really hard -- and to try to keep my imagination like it was when I was a kid. Belief is power; I believe that, and hey, why not believe anything's possible? If our relations between our right and left hemisphere are the crux of conscious life...well, I won't get too much into it. I will say that believing in the wildest things I can dream of helps to sort my brain out, though. Because then the 'mental drudgery circle' breaks, and it's like you can fly anywhere you want. I'm not saying it's the best thing I've ever found, but it sure as hell is helping to keep me happy when everything else in my life feels like it's falling off a cliff!

Jib: "Control" is my favorite so far. Absolutely love it; thanks for sending me the album, man, I really appreciate it.

Jib: Hello kHan, how's it going, time for ice cream, BRAIN SHUT DOWN HULK SMASH just wanted a hug but had to raid the ice cream parlor for peppermint chips and hot fudge instead, am I right?

Jib: And thanks for the comment...and about that, same thing for me, which of course is why I wrote it. I think. I don't know most of the time! But yeah, it's quite a feeling, but I'm learning a lot from it. Painful lesson, but very important one indeed.

Jib: Sure

Jib: Very relaxing. Pretty 'bright' instrumentality and a nice upbeat feel to it, too...nice blend of mellow and lively. I'd say...like a glass of mild eggnog. Perhaps a semi-thick milkshake, not too cold, or not cold enough to cause brain freeze. Although my brain I believe it is frozen yes, block of ice...perhaps wet concrete again, solidifying, or maybe something less concrete. Get it? Abstraction, yes! Milkshake? NO. But of course. That is why I believe yes, I do enjoy that band, and assume the whole of their music is of eggnog, for the most part, speaking generally though not broadly, too much. And 4:34 just hit the mark and the song is over. It was a good experience!

Jib: Oh, and one thing about Buddhism or anything involved with spirituality, it's a good idea to keep up social contacts. I ended up having like 500 breakdowns and have slowly become almost completely antisocial, and my mental stability has been severely compromised as a result. I'm pretty confident that social relations would help, but I don't know where to find them, and I have to do some more recuperative work first. But yeah, just wanted to let you know, because delving too far into the individualistic quest thing can completely fuck with your head -- and I'm sure you know that already, but throwing spirituality into the mix is like taking antipsychotic medication with alcohol. I forgot that Buddhism was a societal-based religion, and I also kind of completely ignored the aspect of religion as a unification between people...so if you ever catch yourself falling into abnormally strict isolation, like something you'd expect in a solitary confinement cell, remember that people do help. I'm in the same boat as you as liking to think completely for myself, and I hate taking advice from other people or getting help from anyone, but sometimes it just has to be done, even if it's just asking someone to hang out or whatever. Just felt like I had to say that for some reason; not trying to preach, just trying to relay a personal anecdote in hopes that it might be of some use to you.

Jib: KNOW WHAT I MEAN

Jib: Determinism seems interesting; not one in particular, but all forms of it. Everything's too complex....so from my point of view -- and also as a friend of mine put it -- the illusion of free will is as good as having it. The brain processes everything in illusions anyway, and I'm pretty sure our brain makes decisions before we're aware we've made them, as well. Anyway, Buddhism deals a lot with 'surrendering' to that, and I recommend reading about Taoism as well. Need to gather my thoughts, just did a spaghetti-back-waffle.

kHAN: :siesta:

Jib: <3 for sure *makes angel face* ....... >=D *pulls out shiv*

Jib: >_< That's a doozy. You know what that means..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8iCN2T_sw90&feature=related

Jib: And thanks for the reply -- to be honest, I didn't think of provocation at all, but that's definitely a plausible answer. That deserves a good amount of thought...starting to tread determinism/free will waters there. Provocation...I have to say, that's one of the most interesting things I've read all week. Thanks again for the lesson, and if you want, I'm all up for talking about that I really don't have discussions that frequently at all, but it might be good to develop some thoughts, no?

Jib: He wrote "Angie," didn't he? If that's so, that's the only one I've heard by him...but yes, I have heard about him. Recommend any songs in particular?